Good to see you! I'm trying to do the same with exercise - get out of "all or nothing". For me, it's if I don't run, I don't feel like I'm doing anything. Not so! So right now I'm trying to do *anything* pretty much every day. We'll see how it goes.
The thoughts about the deep psyche, yet how "textbook" we are. I've only noticed that since I started keeping an online journal! All this stuff used to be in my head, and sometimes it had so much more power when it just lived there. Now, when I get it out, there's this element of other people hopping in and saying "me too", or "that's just like [this other thing]" and it's hugely relieving in a strange way to not feel so isolated and singular for what I'm thinking or feeling.
Good luck with everything you're struggling with right now - it's time well spent. :) xoxo Mia
yeah, there was a time when my mother called my doctor, got me a prescription for anti-depressants and then arranged for me to see a therapist. Those moms.
I totally hear you on the whole avoiding of uncomfortable feelings things. I myself just like things to be on an even-keel all the time, and anything that upsets that familar status-quo is very threatening. I just wish I could go ahead and figure out those uncomfortable feelings real quick so I can get back to the even-keel business. Heh.
So, this whole not watching TV thing for me is really going to make it hard to avoid my own thoughts. I'm panicking a bit.
I'm happy to read whatever you write! Like Chris said, don't be a stranger!
Jonathan Swift said,
"May you live all the days of your life." I hope I do. I like to write here sometimes, a very impermanent, electronic reflection of my constantly changing path. I find writing and photography to be practices in presence as well as mediums for organizing thought. Some of the connections I've made here are more important to me than I could have imagined.
Good to see you! I'm trying to do the same with exercise - get out of "all or nothing". For me, it's if I don't run, I don't feel like I'm doing anything. Not so! So right now I'm trying to do *anything* pretty much every day. We'll see how it goes.
ReplyDeleteThe thoughts about the deep psyche, yet how "textbook" we are. I've only noticed that since I started keeping an online journal! All this stuff used to be in my head, and sometimes it had so much more power when it just lived there. Now, when I get it out, there's this element of other people hopping in and saying "me too", or "that's just like [this other thing]" and it's hugely relieving in a strange way to not feel so isolated and singular for what I'm thinking or feeling.
Good luck with everything you're struggling with right now - it's time well spent. :)
xoxo
Mia
yeah, there was a time when my mother called my doctor, got me a prescription for anti-depressants and then arranged for me to see a therapist. Those moms.
ReplyDeleteI totally hear you on the whole avoiding of uncomfortable feelings things. I myself just like things to be on an even-keel all the time, and anything that upsets that familar status-quo is very threatening. I just wish I could go ahead and figure out those uncomfortable feelings real quick so I can get back to the even-keel business. Heh.
So, this whole not watching TV thing for me is really going to make it hard to avoid my own thoughts. I'm panicking a bit.
I'm happy to read whatever you write! Like Chris said, don't be a stranger!